So, this isn't really a blog post. I already posted my "real" blog post, but I feel the need to express my guilt.
I feel extremely guilty right now. Emphasis on the extremely. I practiced voice once this week. Once. I feel terrible.
I practiced on Wednesday. I felt great, and had no reason not to. That changed on Thursday. I decided I'd give myself the day off, as I had started Atkins and spent the day fighting bread. I thought I'd be fine. Not so.
On Friday, I felt terrible. Like a zombie. I tried to practice, I really did, but fifteen minutes into warming up, I passed out onto my bed. Not actual passing out, but you get the idea. I was not in the zone.
On Saturday, I felt the same. Dragging. I did not practice. Atkins was still killing me.
Sunday came, I and I had four hours in between church services. THIS is where the excuses END. I should have practiced. Sure, I wasn't feeling my best, but I was feeling better. Instead, I practiced piano and laid around. Yep. All my fault. No excuse. I plain didn't practice.
And here I am at Monday night. I had fully intended to practice. Fully. There was no doubt in my mind that I was going to practice. TODAY. I feel pretty good today. Nothing was going to stop me. Oh, wait. I feel dizzy. So, I took my blood pressure. It was on the low side. Mom says it's because I'm eating different things, and probably not getting enough calories. GEEZ LOUISE. I did count my calories one day(and when I say count, I mean I added them up at the end of the day, not restricted them) and I'd only eaten 650 calories. That is definitely not enough, but I'm getting 50+ grams of protein a day, and I'm not hungry anymore. Goshness. I always thought this would be a good problem to have. It's not.
I absolutely hate that I'm dizzy. It's getting better, but it's still too much for me to practice. And it's already 8 o'clock at night. BLAH.
So, yep, I feel really badly about the non-practicing. Really badly. And my voice lesson's tomorrow. Sigh.
Things happen. I know your work ethic for all things music doesn't take this into account, but others do.
ReplyDeleteThat said, this "Atkins flu" is worrying me. Is this normal? How long does it last? And, you are right: 650 calories is no where near enough.
I will be glad to be back to "normal" - a real computer and such. And seeing/chatting with you.